Showing posts with label life mission. Show all posts
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24 September 2020

Day 202: The point that I am walking

This post is in regards to feedback of my peers in one of the chat groups that I am part of. They have shared their perspectives about my sharing of my findings and found them as imposing and not aligned with the purpose of the group. I noted an explanation of how the context, position, and location of walking and sharing a point is a very tricky part. And how it is best to share a point only after one has walked it completely and has manifested results as the proof of the validity of the point is a solution that is best for all. I learned what points some are walking and that it takes many years, up to 14 or even more, to complete with a point. So it is best to walk a point privately and refrain from constant sharing of our discoveries and realizations in regards to that personal point to others until it becomes mature enough. That begs the question of what the point that I am actually walking in this life is?


Why your Weakest Points are your Greatest strength



The core experience in my current life can be explained with the events that happened as observed during a guided therapeutic regression into my previous life. I found myself in a female body that has been publicly executed by hanging in front of a mind-obsessed crowd. The reason why they found me as not worth living was their belief that I have become impure after one of the invading Viking has raped me. At that time I had a boyfriend who resented me for letting myself hanged while remaining silent. And the reason why I did not defend myself by speaking out was that I did not see any point in it. At the end of the regression session, I connected that the violent Viking that raped med has in my current life incarnated as my father and my formal boyfriend incarnated as my younger brother.

Using the vision of my previous life I was able to realize the relationships in my current life where I have actually been suppressed by my father in terms of having to do exactly what he demanded from me and not being allowed to speak back or I would experience the wrath of his anger. And I moved about of the house of my parents and left my younger brother behind without any previous notice to him while until then we had a pretty close relationship. I was basically unable to solve my situation by using words since I had a poor vocabulary and an extensive amount of accumulated fear. And at the same time, I perceived myself as someone with high intelligence and very advanced in terms of intellectual capabilities. So I concluded that if there is nothing wrong with me, there must be something wrong with all other humans in general.

Now I am realizing that while I was able to excel it was only in an environment where I used my mind and thinking process and computers or related digital technology. And whenever I was in an environment demanding to use the voice mechanism of my human physical body to communicate with other people I failed miserably. And since my father has been constantly pushing me to excel in things in order for him to be proud of me, I lacked to recognize that such an attitude is only effective in relation to him personally. So whenever I would apply the personality of excellence within relationships to others it would be perceived as superiority and met with envy or disimprovement. Thus I am slowly but surely discovering the actual points of limitation and separation and transforming them into what is best for me and others.

Another perspective on my relationship with my father is in terms of money. Even when I finished secondary school and got employed by my father I did not actually receive a salary and I was not taught anything about how money works. It was my father who went out and bought all the production equipment and material, he was the one who delivered the products to our clients, my mother would be the one who issued the invoices and my father would then manage all the money. If I wanted something for me personally or for our business I would have to go to my father and ask him to do the purchase. And he would then deliver the purchased items with great pride and good feels like it was his personal donation to me or to our company.

So the point that I am walking is foremost becoming vocal and speaking out without any fear of what others might think or say. Then it is speaking in a way where I do not perceive me as superior and thus try to diminish others but to speak to others as equal which means the development of compassion, empathy, active listening, asking questions, and telling stories. In that regard, I am also realizing how ineffective my vocabulary is so I am investing at least one hour per day to rebuild and expand my vocabulary, especially in the English language. Since I am living and working alone there is no much opportunity during a day to actually speak to anyone so I see the need to practice speaking more and I am looking for a way of developing this skill to a sufficient level.

In terms of money defined as the measure and store of intrinsic value, I am actually working on comprehending what I value of something is and how to measure it. And in terms of currency defined as a volatile circulated medium of exchange, I am actually surprised why humans would even use a form of money that is volatile instead of using a medium of exchange that has a stable value. So when combining values and words we come to agreements and legislations where I again wonder about the existence of the mechanisms that enable to enforce a unilateral (un)agreements while the legislation is at the same time defining such act as a punishable crime. So I am discovering tricks and traps of the court and comprehending their game in order be able to use the words to protect myself effectively against anyone that wants something from me against my will.

While I am also to a minor extent following the development of the new plasma technology and what is happening behind the scenes of the global politics, including the economic shutdown, I am according to my personal point focusing mostly on the core reason for humans to think, communicate and behave the way they do. Which boils done to words, their definitions, and energetic attachments. Because we can express ourselves with speaking and writing and comprehend reality only according to how large our vocabulary is, how good we know all the definitions of the words, and to what extent we have removed any positive or negative polarity from the word we know. When those foundations are perfected, one is able to defend itself against any written and spoken word and also defend the one that is not able to defend themselves. 

Some think that laws must be obeyed, regardless of what they say, yet there are effective ways of refusing to accept any law by using the same argumentations that laws argue their own existence and validity. Each of us is an equal creator and a word of someone cannot be more powerful than the word of anyone else. So each is responsible for what they accept within themselves and allow them to continue to exist and the only reason why someone would not do that is self-dishonesty and self-disempowerment. I learned that any fear is just an illusion and each time one is giving in to any kind of fear, they give their personal power to the illusion and thus make it stronger. This is also why I have decided to not wear the mask because I have done my research and realized that it does not protect me or others from viruses and diseases. Demands to wear masks are based on invalid fear and thus my point is also to walk without the mask at any time and bravely face all the fears that challenge me.

The advanced level of the language that I am studying for the same reasons is the Correct Quantum language that is currently being used with great effect by: Russel-Jay: Gould for the liberation of this world. Many things are happening behind the scenes where others are walking their points towards completeness and are are just now coming out to the public. Some think that what they do is ineffective because they do not show any proof for it, yet the reality is that many have abused what they showed so far and thus they have became more careful about what they show and what not. They are perfecting their point and placing protection mechanisms in order to prevent others to use it in a harmful ways. Many of them have also been under heavy attack, mockery and even assassination attempt. A lot of them died because they were not able to protect themselves successfully. So it takes a lot of courage, dedication, time, persistence and alertness in order for a powerful point to be fully developed and eventually delivered for the benefit for all.

When all these points will be fully developed and deployed, I see the world were written and spoken words will be allowed to used only to establish equal agreements based on what is best for all life, I see the abundance of any chemical elements and all kinds of energy, I see vast improvement of mental and physical human health with increased longevity, I see mutual collaboration to clean this planet from all pollutions, I see new ways of space travel and nourishment of the human body where transcend limitations of times, space and matter. I see expansion beyond most of people are currently able to imagine. And I plan to play a significant part in that process by expanding my inner world which will then result also in expansion of the outer world. I am expecting to face a lot of inner and outer resistances on many levels however these are challenges that I am looking forward to since overcoming them will fill me with deep satisfaction.

14 February 2017

Day 149: How I experience myself towards woman

It came up with discussion with my Desteni I Process course buddy that it would be beneficial for me to write about how I experience myself towards man and towards woman. I started to write this post with intention to focus only on my experiences towards men first but then I noticed that I am actually writing how I experience myself as a man towards woman. So I will be writing about men in the following post.




Starting with my school memories I definitely felt like an outsider, someone who does not fit in and does not understand why others behave like they do. That is because firstly by father did not allow me to socialise, go out and mingle in the evenings and weekends due to fear that I will be bullied the same way like he was by his classmates. And than by father was also an example of individualistic person who was not able to work in a team due to his own low self-esteem and the need to prove himself, constantly craving for attention of others. The third factor was how I was treated as the first born son who was expected to be serious, responsible, intelligent and an example to my younger brother. Additional influence was the fact that my father started our family business where I was constantly pushed to work very hard and for long hours.

So until age of 24 my life has been so occupied with activities and directed by my father that I basically did not have any time to think about who I am, who I have become and to develop any ambition for my personal life as a man. Basically it did not matter that I was a male since all what counted in my life is how I perform as the oldest child and employe. In a way, my role towards my father was more like a pet. I was to listen and obey the orders and get treats and if not, I was punished. It was by pure coincidence that I met my first girlfriend during a visit of our business partner. What connected us was the fact that we were in a very similar position as the oldest child in the family and facing the same terror by our fathers who run the family business. It was basically a coalition to join forces in the fight for our freedom and human right. The problem was that I was conditioned so much that I lacked the strong many character that she needed and she was also emotionally damaged to the level where she was played by her father like a piano.

After my first girlfriend left me, I started to research human psychology and that pulled me into another rabbit hole of discovering the grater picture of existence. My self-definition as a man was then also put under question after I discovered that in my previous life I was a female. Understanding that I play only a temporary role as a men in this life influenced me in questioning how much I should identify myself with a male character since I am a living being beyond the two human sexes. I learned that sexes exist also on the level of primary beings that emerged from the planets. However some beings came into existence in a synthetic manner and I have not yet ordered my Sound Symbol & Beingness Signature Drawings in order to find out how I came into existence. The point is that despite of finding myself in my male human physical body, I did never put much attention into fitting any general definition of a male and presenting myself towards other as a male. My relationship towards other is more like towards fellow sexless children of god.

Of course I do experience sexual needs and like to have sex with women, however my primary life mission is not focused on finding a wife and having children. I enjoy being alone and when I am not in a relationship with a woman, I use masturbation purely as a tool to satisfy my sexual needs to the level where they do not distract my attention form passionately progressing towards discovering all the secrets of life and existence. I did made myself available by creating profiles on many online and mobile dating web sites and I do respond to any request in timely manner. And I also do searches and send messages to the profiles I like. However I just recently restated with more active online dating activities after about 3 years of being single again. I definitely learned many things from my past relationships and I have changed and raised my criteria and minimal standards about the women that I am willing to start dating. I am not interested anymore in emotional drama and until some girl who is willing and capable to walk a relationship with me as one end equal contacts me, I prefer staying single.

Currently I am also developing new business plan for myself that will hopefully provide me with a stable income. Well I learned that things in business do change faster than ever so I do not expect any business to be stable for ever, but at least I want to develop some business to a level where I will be able to pay of my debt and have my monthly expenses more than covered. This is also why I am currently not willing to spend more time to date in terms of also physically going out or approaching females that I meet in person. Being now age of 43 I find myself in a bit strange relationship position. This is because most of women my age already are in a relationship or are separated and have their own children. I know that children demand a lot of attention and that there is a totally different relationship dynamic when dating a woman with a child, especially if their ex is still alive and is paying visits to his ex female partner and their children. And for the single girls of my age it is so that they mostly look exhausted and old, their ability to safely birth children is running out and they have set their ways. Considering that my partner will have a lot to catching up to do and that I do want my own kinds without any additional baggage, I will obviously have to get a much younger girl which is also a challenge of its own since not many are looking to date much older guy.

I see having enough money as a basis to fulfil my dating and relationship plans regardless what kind of woman I will hook up with. However on the other hand I also do not feel the rush of making money because I enjoy living current comfortable life where my basic needs are met and I feel free and without any much stress, able to learn and discover new things. Being single has also its own benefits and considering that god is one and that we are all parts of the god, finding us in the illusion of separation, moving back to oneness, I wonder why even bother with creating attachments to any life partner in a human physical body that has a relative short life span. Bottom line is that I am committed to bringing us together so I am not lonely and am free to bond with any individual that I meet. Regardless what life will bring, I know that it is my sole responsibility to feel fulfilled, to forgive myself any illusion of lack and that whatever will happen, I plan to leave this physical existence with as little regret as possible.

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