Day 148: Energy, frequency and vibration

People who consider themselves spiritual ten to use specific word in order to communicate their progress and how they see change in this world. Many of them use the quote of Nikola Tesla who said: “If you want to find the secrets of the universe, think in terms of energy, frequency and vibration.” Some talk also about the higher dimensions, about love consciousness, chakras, photon bands and increasing power of light that will expose the darkness. Positive thinking and positive energy is according to them the answer to solve current problems of humanity. They define this world as nothing but illusion since when we look the matter under the electronic microscope is is comprised only by small particles and a lot of space. Such definitions and explanations have confused me and made me wonder how to define myself and what to do since this world still seem to my human body senses as a very solid manifestation of reality and it did not go away just by becoming introduced to the quantum physics. And how practically shall I then open my hearth chakra, increase vibration and become the being of light since I can not see any doors, frequency modulator or energy switch? This was so intangible and impractical that it was driving me mad. Because if this world is only a hologram where we experience life lessons and we return to reality when we leave our physical bodies, is it then death not the only exit after one has reached such enlightenment and would it then not be the best to just kill myself as soon as possible to escape this illusion?

Luckily several years ago I discovered an interesting source of information that explained also what is going on in the afterlife and how the system of reincarnation works. And then also how it has been changed in order to stop the suffering in this world. Then also that energy is not the primary manifestation that created the illusion of substance but that it is the other way around. It was the substance as the embodiment of sound that created itself into energy and frequency. And that explanation enabled me to ground myself and a more practical way to work on the process of identifying and removing all point of separation. Also in the Bible it is said that “in the beginning was the world“ so if the words have the power of creation, I am able to use the words to recreate the existence into something that is far more desirable. But before that I must also understand what world actually mean and to align my definitions according to the real meaning. Because I realised that it is not only the negative energy like fear that paralyses but that also the positive energy like love has an equal effect. All the energy that is created by the vibration as manifested conflict and separation within the substance is what is possessing and blinding us and moving us away from each other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define this world as illusion and wanting to escape from it by killing myself. I realise that the problem is not with the world that I find myself in but in my relationship with it and how I experience it. I commit myself to when and as I find myself in a challenging situation and my mind is producing thoughts like: “What is the point of all this of this world is not real? Why just not go home to the afterlife and enjoy the bliss of heaven?“ to stop and breathe. I then continue to move myself it his world and contribute to make it better.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that problems of this world can be solved by increasing my frequency of vibration and light within me. I realise that while objects in this world do resonate and one can measure the frequency and intensity of many things, there are actual words behind the actions of everyone of us. I commit myself to when and as I experience trouble and my mind goes: “Just sit down, open your hearth chakra and imagine for the energy of love and light to emanate into all the existence!” to stop and breathe. I rather look deeper into my subconscious mind and name the game by finding appropriate words that describe the movement within me that create conflict between me and this world and then forgive all points of separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish that this existence would fix itself quickly and thus becoming restless and impatient. I realise that in this dimension of time and space there are laws that govern how fast something manifests that I am not able to change by using only wishful thinking. I commit myself to when and as I see how slow things move and my mind is saying me: “You should become angry and express your anergy of dissatisfaction!“ to stop and breathe. I then move myself slowly and patiently with the speed of the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will die before I achieve anything substantial in my life since time is passing so fast. I realise that every single thought, emotion, word and action of mine count since everything creates consequence and ripple effects. I commit myself to when and as I see how much I have achieved in my life and my mind steps in with thoughts like: “You are running out of time so better hurry to create something that other will remember you by!“ to stop and breathe. I then continue to perfect myself with awareness that the best way to fix this world is by firstly improving myself and become a practical example for others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to control the events in this reality and becoming disappointed when they do not turn out as I imagined. I realise that I am only one of many individuals that influence the events in this existence and that the only thing that I am able to control is myself and the attitude towards myself and the outer manifestations. I commit myself to when and as I observe what is going on outside myself and my mind goes like: “Look at all this suffering and distraction! You must become very sad since you are powerless and very small part of existence.” to stop and breathe. I then continue with participation in this world with awareness that the most important is for me to do my best and encourage others to do the same. 

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Day 107: Bernard Poolman died

Days from 99 to 106 are in my Slovenian blog.

It came as a shock when I noticed a blog post that Bernard Poolman died. His daughter Cerise Poolman published that he passed away in the early hours of Sunday morning, 11 August 2013 (SA time) and that his heart stopped beating.

Bernard was my dear friend and a role-model. I had privilege to meet him when I visited Desteni farm two years ago. Based on the work he had done, he can from my perspective be easily compared to Jesus or Buddha. I did not expect him to go so soon, since he was working on the extensive life research and I expected that he has access to knowledge that would enable him to live forever. However I learned that the dimensions of existence that he researched and influenced also demanded from him immense effort so he suffered great pain end pressure while dealing with all the systems.

He influenced and supported me in a very unusual, but effective way. After years of visiting many spiritual workshops, retreats and paying thousand of euros for Reiki, Angelic and other alternative medicine therapies that did not work at all, Bernard assisted me greatly. When I was at the dinner table in the Desteni farm kitchen, we had a conversation. I did not said to him verbally, however in my mind I was saying to him: “Here I am now. I have come here for you to destroy me. Now do it!". And he did. He destroyed me with greater intensity that I ever imagined.

By destroying me, I mean destroying my ego, my false self, my mind that I tried to destroy myself for many years but nothing worked. I knew that gurus and healers are fakers. They just stroked my ego and I required a firm hand to beat the hell out of me. Bernard had his ways, only few people understood why he was doing thing the way he did, but he was exactly what I needed. He was not afraid to speak what he wanted to convey, all he wanted was the truth and what is best for all. He stood up for all living beings bravely and heroically.

My most prominent point was fear of judgement from others. I feared expressing myself and thus developed quiet, introverted personality who was hiding behind computers and cameras. Bernard discovered this right away and gave me a lesson that I will never forget. Now, thanks to his support, I fear no more. I stand up firmly and do not care what others think. And I also learned to support others in similar ways that Bernard supported me. Some are so caught in their minds, so possessed with love and light that need a firms shaking before they realize their bull shit fakery.

I will continue the fight he started, I will keep beating the hell out of me and out of others, until all evil will be removed from this world. The destruction of life must stop, the mind must stop. We have lived in separation for too long. It is time that we learn the lessons, open our eyes and realize what we are doing to self and others. We can do much better than this. We can create a world full of abundance and prosperity. We can create heaven on earth. And we will!