The pain in the middle of my back as described in my previous post afterwards started to gradually dissipate with time. However it got intensified couple of days before I was to travel to Vienna to a 6-day Tree Climbing Course Level B. That created worry about if I would be able to take part in the course and I have been wondering even about cancelling my participation at the course. Last time when I attended the Level A course I was able to pack the inversion table in my car in order to use it every day for the back pain relief. However this time I had much more climbing and rigging equipment with me and there was no space left to take the inversion table with me. I took a gamble and departed to Vienna and luckely the 2nd day of the course the back pain was gone and it did not come back again not even in the weeks that followed after I returned home.
I however got a slight back pain a week ago however it was not located in the lower back but in the middle of my back, bellow the scapula where the limitation system is located. The pain started to emerge slowly and I correlated it with my thought patterns at the time. I have been thinking about how the fall season started and how it is not good to prune trees during the period of releasing the leaves. Consequently I was not sure if I would be getting enough orders to earn the money for fixed monthly expenses and by January 2026 save enough money to pay for the Certified European Tree Worker course which is one of my goals. However that pain went away in couple of days after I did some self-reflection on that point and aligned myself again with the fact that I am able to find work and earn money very quickly.
The next pain point that I have been facing with and has been chronic for about 2 months is the pain in my right elbow. I alreadly wrote about that point two posts ago however it changed in terms of its manifestation. Previously I experienced pain when I would move or rest my hand in certain position however now it is only a slight permanent pain with a specific pressure point. Initially I considered that pain as the consequence of doing two physically very exhausting pruning project. The first one was in regards to a large old cherry treee where I have spent 8 hours in the canopy and 15 total working hours the first day and 6 hours of ground work the following day where I would towards the end hold top-handle chainsaw in my right hand while cutting thick branches to hundreds of firewood logs. And in the following week I completed 4 projects including pruning and partial removal of a cypress hedge that in total took 8 hours. During that time I held my right hand raised high while holding a battery pruners for several hours.
Since the pain in my right hand persisted for long period of time I concluded that I overburdened specific muscles and that I simply need to give it enough time in order sufficient healing to take place. But not it has already been 3 month after those two exhausing projects took place and I started to become suspicious that there is some other reason for that pain. There is also a psychological aspect of the large old cherry tree project since I also was not payed for it as initially expected. When I visited the client after the project was completed she somehow expected a lower sum to pay which was not aligned with my hourly rate that I informed her about in the beginning. She also had a companly related to trees and I expected a fair and honest attitude however she diminished the value of my work. At the end we established a middle ground however I was still dissapointed about loosing some income.
I have again read the article about how the elbows points represent our structural resonance controlled direction antennas referred also as the The Choice Systemin order to make sense of it. So let me take a look how I am currently experiencing pre-programming of my life and the illusion of choice while I am in the system where the main program is survival. What I conclude is that I am keeping a detailed record of income and expenses, account ballences and fixed monthly expenses and planned expenses. In terms of survival I am constantly estimating how many months my current savings can keep me afloat in case I do not have and new income. This reflects in my motivation to get new jobs and earn more money. And then I also made investment plans in order to develop myself professionally and progress towards offering higher quality of my services.
In the beginning of next year I plan to invest in training and testing in order to complete certification for the European Tree Worker. I calculated how much money and time I whould have to invest and currently I only have enough savings to cover that expenses if I disregard fixed monthly expenses. So I would have to in the following 2 months additionally get at least the same amount of money just to break even. In terms of the possibilities of how to get the money I am currently focused only on earning money by offering my arboricultural services. I am aware that there are countless possibilities of getting the money however I do not want to think about them. I am getting frequent phone calls with invitations to different invesments but I consider them as very riskly. Getting new jobs in my line of business is relatively easy and the money is practically guaranteed however it still is a business of exchanging time for money and thus enables limited posible highest monthly income.
Currently we are entering the season of fall in which it is typical that tree climbers are starting to experience reduced amount of orders and there is usually even less work for them in the winter. Also it is not recommended to prune decidious trees while they are in the phase of releasing their leaves. During this phase it would be best if people would call me for tree removals and I am wondering how how many of them will consider this and create sufficient orders for me. Thus there is constant worry about how things will turn out and what actions to take in order to guarantee surival. But at the end I am confident enough in my ability to earn money and of course there is also the option to terminate my business and again start to receive unemployment benefits from the government. And if I look my situation from the holistic perspective I can conclude that I have entered this illusion of separation and I am able to exit it any time I decide to and leave everthing behind, including the system of survival alltogether.
