Day 68: Sharing the washing machine

In the new small apartment I do not have a washing machine. The apartment I rent was advertised as equipped with all the necessary equipement, thus I also expected to have a washing machine. I asked the landlady about how will I be washing my laundry and we made and agreement that I will be allowed to use her washing machine until I would buy my own.

Today enough of laundry accumulated to fill one washing machine so I asked the landlady if she can wash it. This was also the last day after she would travel abroad for couple of days, so I wanted to make sure that the laundry would be done in time before she left. So she did allow me to go to her bathroom, I used my own washing powder and switched on the machine. After two hours she gave me a ring and told me that washing is completed. I went to pick the laundry and hanged it on the terrace in the middle of sunny Sunday.

I also discussed with my landlady how uneconomic it is for each apartment to have its own washing machine since at least I do not use it more that two hours per week thus it would be better if the whole house would have just one machine and we would share it. But we have became so used to individuality and separation that for the most of the people this would require too large change of the mindset. But let's face it, this kind of arrangement would be much better for all and also for the environment. 

We already started to share a lot of thing. For example, we have public transportation, public roads and other infrastructure and the latest city acquisition is the city bicycle sharing network. This is a nice step towards the realisation that we in fact do not need to poses things in order to use it. So in the future we just need to expand this concept as wide as possible and implement it at all points of our life. And the quickest way to make this true is by implementing the political solution of an Equal Money System.

Day 67: Uncertainty about the future

Days from 64 to 66 are in my Slovenian blog.

I planned to go around my new neighborhood in these days in order to know the people who live here and to introduce myself and my new services. I prepared a brochure with different sorts of services that I would offer, from babysitting, teaching computer skills, English language, to graphic and web design services all the way to trimming bushes and cleaning suages. But then I started to doubting about the impression that I would make and if it would not be best if I reduce the services to similar types and not be to vague. Also the rainy storms are appearing and this also prevented me to go around and nock on the doors of the neighbors.

Someone called me two days ago and expressed the interest to buy one of my computers that I am selling online. If I would make a sale in monday as predicted, I would get enough money to pay the rent in time and this possibility removed the worry about where I would come with enough money. However now I am worried if the person would loose interes and change his mind and then I would be in trouble. So until Monday I would not know for sure how things will develop.

Then on the Monday evening also some training starts and will be ongoing for several days thus I do not want to fill my schedule too much since I want to reserve enough time for learning. Thus I now decided to finish some additional ads for the stuff and stock that I want to sell. However I am not very fun of searching all the invoices and extracting the purchased price in order to set the sales price. I am not excited at all and feel very heavy and sleepy. This could also be the influence of the weather. Thus I occasionally escape by watching movies.

Well, I do make some progress, slowly but surely and expect that everything will turn out just fine. I plan to discipline myself more, change my thinking and behavior patterns however I feel great resistance. I am breathing a lot, sorting out financial papers and building my new dream-board and action plan.

Day 63: Settling into new apartment

I can not believe it. After boxes and boxes of stuff given away, I today still filled two large boxes of tuff that I will be giving away and I still have about 6 boxes of stock material in the previous apartment and the full bedroom and the full living room there. I moved from 100 square meter apartment to 30 square meters apartment so one third of the previous apartment. And I felt like previous apartment was not even half full of stuff. And I am also surprised about how much time I spend for moving. I imagined that couple of days will do but it is almost two weeks since the beginning of moving out.

I experience that everything I do takes much more time than in previous years. Everything moves so slow. The main problem is that I find it more difficult to earn money that in the past. I remember my perception about 5 years ago where I would have a feeling like I am not working at all, just having fun and spending much of my time for self-research, reading books and attending workshops. And money would simply come without any trouble. I had so much orders that I had to specialize. But then something changed and orders started to fall in numbers. Is this due to so called “financial crisis”, or is it something else?

Well previously my parents assisted me a lot financially. I just had to focus on my work and they would handle the business. They also helped me to get my own apartment so I had not a lot of fixed monthly costs. Thus I was able to work relatively little and earn a lot. They say “It is not how much you earn but how much you save that makes you rich”. And I see now this to be true. After selling my apartment I moved to big expensive apartment without effectively tracking my business finances. I imagined that it would be the same as before, especially since I moved to capital city where people have more money and are much more opened for business.

But unfortunately my expectations did not come true. It was an interesting bunch of circumstances that influenced the outcome. Firstly the study of psychology took much more time that I expected. Then the online store management did not turn out like I planned. Next the delivery of equipement for my photo studio took 7 instead of 1 month due to natural disasters in Japan and China. Also my ex girlfriend did not collaborate with me but decided for another high school and she also influenced me with her mind patterns of modest living without any big ambitions. And they say “You have attracted or created everything in your life” thus you must take self-responsibility for past events.

And so I do. Tomorrow I continue with sales activities of the stock from my online store, I have some other personal stuff for sale and I will use any opportunity to earn money. I could can do many things. From graphic design to photography, web design and development, even gardening. I remember how I in the beginning when I started my own business 13 years ago it was spring and I went around the neighborhood offering to trim bushes and trees. I am also able to do small home repairs and many more. I learn quickly and do my work in high quality. However wonder in to what level should I try different businesses and to what extent should I remain focused on the new direct sales business that I have been developing for the last 4 months? It would be strange if I would go tomorrow around my new neighborhood and offer to trim bushes and then visit them couple of weeks later in suit and tie trying to sell them some very different product. Or would they not mind at all? Well well see.

Day 62: I received the Knowledge

Today I received the so called Knowledge. This is a couple of techniques that Prem Rawat Maharaji is teaching and whoever accepts this Knowledge is must pledge not to reveal this techniques to anyone else and not to share its experiences with using the knowledge with anyone. So I will also not reveal what I have been taught but only discuss my backchat about his issue.

Now this Knowledge is about peace, about breath and it is to be practiced at least one hour per day in order to “give it a fair chance”. Since there are many of techniques for achieving peace and tranquility I wonder which one to use and what is the most effective? There is only 24 our in a day. And if one is sleeping for 8 hour per day, there is only 16 hours left. One hour is thus 1/16 or about 7% ob daily effective time. Also many of these peace techniques are part of the White Light deception and can seem very nice and peaceful, however it transform people to inactive state where sure the individuals who practice techniques become peaceful, however they also do not care about others and the consequences of their actions.

From my experiences it is quite easy to calm down, to take self-responsibility for your emotions. So becoming peaceful within is not something that can be a major goal for me. I am more interested in other aspects of this reality that are mostly unnoticed by New Age and spiritual aspirants. Thus I find Desteni I Process and Equal Money System as the most complete solutions to biring peace and abundance for all living beings. It is more important to specifically transform your thinking and behavior pattern with full awareness and self-responsibility and to change the world system by political means than simply doing some breathing and attention focusing techniques without practically changing anything. 

Day 61: Illusion of everything is OK

It is interesting, how many people that I spoke to would like to live quiet simple life, without caring for others. They say that others have their own karma and they need their own experiences in order to grow. And the bigger the life struggles, the bigger the motivation to change and improve life. This is mostly true, since some are like in a state of sleep and unaware of what is going on on this world until some big problem happens.

But can't here be another way? Why can not take care for each other in spite living a relative great life? The mind energies of good feelings and limited range of our human senses keeps us in the state of separation and not realizing the consequences of our actions. And so much distractions, like TV, radio, ads, magazines and other people who want attention.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to be in state of contentment due to illusion of separation and resting and doing nothing much to change in this world and thus allowing the cycle of invisible abuse to continue.

I commit myself to constantly be aware of the real situation and motivate myself to move myself towards creating the world system where a dignified life for all will be guaranteed.

Day 60: Confusion about using the mind

In the past several years of self-discovery I have read a lot of books and digital content that describe how human function and how is bets to live and function on this world. There terminology used was the mind, consciousness, awareness, ascension, enlightenment, higher self, chakras, afterlife etc. Now when discovering Desteni material I was able to become more clear about some phenomena and structures about humans, however there are still many things that I am confused about.

There is specifici terminology used at one source that I am studying from and there is different terminology at the other source. Both sources are attractive for me since one is very revolutionary in terms of interdimensional research and the other is a source of practical information about how to be successful in the current system. From one perspective mind is not to be used but only the physical or the the physical mind. One is not to create energy of emotion and be energetically stable within however some suggets the use of emotional energy to focus and effectively create and move things in this reality. I will have to research more of the material available and engage in chats or forums in order to clarify this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to think and be confused about things instead if asking people who have information and ability to clarify things.

I commit myself to when and as I have some question that I am not able to answer myself, I contact people who can assist me and thus come to clarity.

Day 58: First night in the new apartment

Today will be the first night that I will spend in the new apartment. I am physically exhausted and I will still need a couple of days to clean the old apartment and to put all the thing int place in the new apartment.