2011 - I got my first recruit

It is 1am and I again can't sleep. After last self-forgiveness, I felt very refreshed and my head was crystal clear the next day, but now thoughts started to accumulate again, so it is time to do some more writing.

Yesterday morning when I woke up, my body felt very tired and my muscles hurt, obviously from the extensive mountain climbing several days ago. Only now muscles started to regenerate, so I decided to listen to my physical body and continue to rest. The weather also started to become more cold and cloudy, and perhaps this contributed to my feeling of sleepiness. It was not until 12 a.m. when I finally made myself to go out of my bed.

I had I first online chat scheduled with my first Desteni I Process recruit who became my FaceBook friend just four days ago, and he immediately went to recruitment centre and selected me as his recruiter. And what is even more strange is, that he is Slovenian, but moved to China several years ago, got married there and now he has been working there ever since. We have a 6 hours time difference, and since he wanted to chat with me at 7 p.m. China time, I needed to wait for him at 1 p.m. Central European time. Since I learned that things can never go exactly according to plans, I stated to write my Slovenian blog post while staying online and waiting for him to connect with me via Skype. I finished my blog post at 3:30 p.m., but he still did not connect. So I then sent him a message to arrange for another time frame.

I then watched and shared the new Desteni videos and communicated on the new Slovenian FaceBook group that I created a week ago called Practical Manifestation of Heaven on Earth. I invited many FaceBook friends of mine in this group, but some have started to react on published material and allowed themselves to emotionally react. I tried to explain them the points, but it was in vain. They became totally pissed of and complained that there is too little love and acceptance in this group and that they do not feel good, so they left. And it is cool that they left the group, since I want only the ones that are willing to stand up for life and equality to participate.

All the people who left were over 40 years old and they all had many experiences in field of spirituality end esoteric new age. I had a hunch that these people will be problematic the first moment when I checked their profile, but I wanted to give them a chance. Now I learned that it is better to listen to myself and understand that older and spiritual people are the last who will want to really change themselves and support all living beings as one and equal. So I will be focusing only on those who are younger, from about 20 - 30 years of age, who are not drug or alcohol or emotional addicts.

It is 2 a.m. and I feel tired. Too tired to continue to write. I wander if I should push myself and write more and even do some self-forgiveness, or was it enough to write this in order to calm my mind and become able to fall asleep. Or maybe this is just my ego justification, protecting itself. My eyes are getting heavy, and I decided that I will rather stop and try to sleep and continue next time. I have many plans today, I plan to go to Ljubljana, test the video camera, buy some stuff, meet some people, check some real estates, so it is better to give myself a good sleep.
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